1 00:00:17,784 --> 00:00:22,255 What do you do when your friends think you're the boy who cried wolf? 2 00:00:28,562 --> 00:00:33,566 Matt Kellner had gone missing in the dead of night sometime in September of 1981. 3 00:00:36,670 --> 00:00:41,107 But oddly, no one in my social circle was that concerned about it. 4 00:00:42,776 --> 00:00:46,580 Looking back, I realize that's the gift of youth. 5 00:00:47,548 --> 00:00:49,626 You think you'll live forever. 6 00:00:49,650 --> 00:00:52,763 I bet Matt moved to Big Sur to deal drugs, get out of the LA rat race. 7 00:00:52,787 --> 00:00:54,630 I agree. 8 00:00:54,654 --> 00:00:56,365 I mean, who wouldn't? I hear the Esalen Institute's amazing. 9 00:00:56,389 --> 00:00:58,125 What? 10 00:00:58,325 --> 00:01:00,369 That's lunacy. What about the blood-stained backpack they found? 11 00:01:00,393 --> 00:01:04,965 Hon, I love you, but why are you so drawn to worst-case scenarios? 12 00:01:05,131 --> 00:01:06,743 You didn't even know him. 13 00:01:06,767 --> 00:01:09,302 Don't mourn a death that hasn't officially happened. 14 00:01:09,569 --> 00:01:12,739 - Can we talk about happier things? - Please. I need a cig. 15 00:01:15,275 --> 00:01:20,347 But then came October 1st, the so-called first day of spooky season. 16 00:01:23,650 --> 00:01:28,388 October 1st was officially The Day the Fun Died. 17 00:01:31,324 --> 00:01:34,861 Because that's the day The Trawler got Really Rhonda. 18 00:01:47,807 --> 00:01:51,245 Really Rhonda was in our class, and everyone loved her. 19 00:01:51,778 --> 00:01:53,957 Everyone thought she was hilarious. 20 00:01:53,981 --> 00:01:57,760 Her father was a big ICM agent who represented Sally Kellerman. 21 00:01:57,784 --> 00:01:59,696 He paid the school a handsome fee every year 22 00:01:59,720 --> 00:02:01,922 to assure that Rhonda would be assimilated 23 00:02:02,088 --> 00:02:06,092 and not locked away in the dungeon that was a special needs class. 24 00:02:09,429 --> 00:02:13,466 If X and B are both positive real numbers... 25 00:02:13,567 --> 00:02:15,312 Today we would understand 26 00:02:15,336 --> 00:02:17,938 that Rhonda suffered from a neurological condition, 27 00:02:18,104 --> 00:02:21,541 but back then we just thought she was darkly and convulsively... 28 00:02:24,544 --> 00:02:26,180 impulsive. 29 00:02:26,313 --> 00:02:28,315 Rhonda, please stop it. 30 00:02:28,682 --> 00:02:30,794 I wanna fuck Chewbacca, motherfucker. 31 00:02:30,818 --> 00:02:32,752 And a real truth teller. 32 00:02:33,019 --> 00:02:36,389 Rhonda, do you want detention? 33 00:02:39,226 --> 00:02:41,371 George Washington sucks cocks in hell, motherfucker! 34 00:02:41,395 --> 00:02:43,640 Suck it, lick it, fucking ass-face! Fuck. 35 00:02:43,664 --> 00:02:47,568 Really, Rhonda? Really? 36 00:02:49,035 --> 00:02:52,339 And from that moment on, that's what we all called her. 37 00:02:53,907 --> 00:02:55,408 Really Rhonda. 38 00:03:05,585 --> 00:03:08,388 I always felt an affection for Rhonda. 39 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:11,701 Because during one of her outbursts, 40 00:03:11,725 --> 00:03:14,137 she could have easily told the truth about me, 41 00:03:14,161 --> 00:03:16,730 called me a fag or a gay face, 42 00:03:17,297 --> 00:03:18,598 but she was kind to me. 43 00:03:19,332 --> 00:03:22,736 I felt she purposely edited out my secret truth. 44 00:03:24,337 --> 00:03:29,309 Protected me somehow from the pubescent cruelty of the other kids. 45 00:03:39,386 --> 00:03:41,464 My favorite thing about Rhonda 46 00:03:41,488 --> 00:03:46,426 was that she would not get off the disco roller trend long after it was over. 47 00:03:46,893 --> 00:03:49,797 She just didn't care what people thought about her. 48 00:03:50,698 --> 00:03:53,133 Can you imagine the gift of that? 49 00:03:53,333 --> 00:03:57,437 Really Rhonda is such a good skater. She's even better than Cher. 50 00:04:29,202 --> 00:04:32,005 Disco roller skating is important to this tale, 51 00:04:32,439 --> 00:04:35,142 because that's what she was doing when she was taken. 52 00:04:38,545 --> 00:04:43,684 There was only one disco roller derby place left in town in 1981. 53 00:04:44,218 --> 00:04:48,022 And Rhonda was the only patron at Wheels that night of October 1st. 54 00:04:48,756 --> 00:04:52,025 The Trawler knew that, the loneliness of the place. 55 00:04:53,426 --> 00:04:57,864 And on that night, he snatched Really Rhonda from her happy place. 56 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:01,767 And out of all of our lives. 57 00:05:54,721 --> 00:05:56,523 When Rhonda missed her curfew... 58 00:06:00,026 --> 00:06:02,263 her parents reported her missing. 59 00:06:08,969 --> 00:06:12,215 The police immediately checked out the scene at Wheels. 60 00:06:12,239 --> 00:06:14,040 - I'll check around back. - Got it. 61 00:06:17,010 --> 00:06:19,045 And that's when they found bloodstains. 62 00:06:19,246 --> 00:06:20,590 Over here. 63 00:06:20,614 --> 00:06:22,649 Telltale clues of a violent struggle. 64 00:06:24,317 --> 00:06:26,930 I went to the scene of the crime the next day, 65 00:06:26,954 --> 00:06:29,156 oddly, instinctively. 66 00:06:29,689 --> 00:06:33,693 The place Rhonda had joyously twirled the night before was deserted. 67 00:06:34,027 --> 00:06:40,066 The rotating disco ball, once a symbol of joy, seemed sad to me, mournful. 68 00:06:40,534 --> 00:06:44,037 Slowly twirling like a flag at half-mast 69 00:06:44,204 --> 00:06:49,042 to announce all the ends of things that 1981 had taken from us. 70 00:06:50,510 --> 00:06:51,612 Matt. 71 00:06:52,112 --> 00:06:53,380 Roller disco. 72 00:06:54,214 --> 00:06:55,482 Really Rhonda. 73 00:06:57,417 --> 00:06:59,319 And our sense of security. 74 00:07:53,407 --> 00:07:55,652 Please, please. 75 00:07:55,676 --> 00:07:57,643 Please, please, help me. 76 00:08:22,402 --> 00:08:23,904 Eat it. 77 00:08:39,252 --> 00:08:42,422 It took about three days for everything to go back to normal, 78 00:08:43,056 --> 00:08:45,325 and for everyone to forget about Matt 79 00:08:46,426 --> 00:08:47,426 and Rhonda. 80 00:09:01,208 --> 00:09:03,052 My God. 81 00:09:03,076 --> 00:09:05,321 I love it when we skip lunch on the quad and kick it at the Hamlet. 82 00:09:05,345 --> 00:09:06,346 Yeah, me too. 83 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:08,615 Anyone want half my lunch? 84 00:09:13,119 --> 00:09:15,589 Okay. 85 00:09:17,123 --> 00:09:18,225 Okay, listen up. 86 00:09:18,826 --> 00:09:20,737 Don't forget to take your Flintstones vitamins this month... 87 00:09:20,761 --> 00:09:22,505 Or your diet pills. 88 00:09:22,529 --> 00:09:25,165 Saturday is Robert's, and next Thursday is Dance Off! 89 00:09:25,298 --> 00:09:28,302 And no one is allowed to be hungover 90 00:09:28,435 --> 00:09:31,538 because on Sunday, we all need to practice. 91 00:09:33,473 --> 00:09:34,574 Seriously? 92 00:09:35,275 --> 00:09:37,544 That Dance Off! Thing is really happening? 93 00:09:37,677 --> 00:09:39,880 My God. I thought you were joking. 94 00:09:40,780 --> 00:09:42,849 Does it look like I'm joking, Bret? 95 00:09:50,657 --> 00:09:53,527 Dance Off! Was a daily televised cable access show 96 00:09:53,693 --> 00:09:57,731 that featured regular teenagers dancing to the hot hits of the day. 97 00:09:59,699 --> 00:10:01,434 Teenagers like us. 98 00:10:05,372 --> 00:10:07,450 A Los Angeles institution, 99 00:10:07,474 --> 00:10:11,745 it had its heyday in 1974 and refused to die. 100 00:10:18,752 --> 00:10:21,288 Debbie had been obsessed with the idea 101 00:10:21,388 --> 00:10:24,567 ever since Corazon Cha Cha Rodriguez had gone on and held the camera's attention 102 00:10:24,591 --> 00:10:27,227 for the length of an entire Blondie song. 103 00:10:28,062 --> 00:10:29,763 And not just any Blondie song. 104 00:10:30,063 --> 00:10:34,134 "Rapture," six minutes and 31 seconds. 105 00:10:35,169 --> 00:10:39,082 Debbie saw that hot lava fame and she wanted it for herself. 106 00:10:39,106 --> 00:10:43,342 Becoming a star was her secret ambition, but she was too cool to ever admit it. 107 00:10:50,951 --> 00:10:53,120 I gotta say, I hate that show. 108 00:10:53,253 --> 00:10:57,090 Okay, well, it's a rite of passage classic in this town, and it's happening. 109 00:10:57,290 --> 00:11:01,804 Guys, don't you think it's kind of a bad look to be partying on TV 110 00:11:01,828 --> 00:11:04,231 - with classmates missing? - Okay. 111 00:11:04,431 --> 00:11:08,044 Well, it's what I want. It's done, and you're all coming. 112 00:11:08,068 --> 00:11:11,304 You're welcome. 113 00:11:12,405 --> 00:11:14,283 Okay, so that's it then? 114 00:11:14,307 --> 00:11:17,878 We just don't care anymore about Rhonda or Matt? 115 00:11:18,144 --> 00:11:20,981 Look, Bret, I'm not trying to speak for the group here, 116 00:11:21,114 --> 00:11:22,892 but I'm gonna speak for the group. 117 00:11:22,916 --> 00:11:25,761 - Rhonda and Matt what's-his-face... - Kellner. 118 00:11:25,785 --> 00:11:28,689 They're missing. They haven't been declared dead. 119 00:11:29,289 --> 00:11:30,624 Maybe they ran away. 120 00:11:32,192 --> 00:11:34,161 Bret, before I forget, 121 00:11:34,394 --> 00:11:37,464 do you want to go shopping with me after school for homecoming? 122 00:11:37,764 --> 00:11:39,866 - Tuxedo Warehouse? - Tuxedo Warehouse? 123 00:11:40,700 --> 00:11:42,970 - Is it too... - - You guys have that on the coast? 124 00:11:43,136 --> 00:11:44,604 I don't know, GQ? 125 00:11:46,239 --> 00:11:49,142 I think maybe not GQ enough. 126 00:11:50,544 --> 00:11:52,879 Homecoming. I don't even want to go. 127 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:56,893 What do you mean you don't wanna go? W-Why do you keep saying that repeatedly? 128 00:11:56,917 --> 00:11:58,729 You have to go. 129 00:11:58,753 --> 00:12:01,097 You and Thom are totally gonna win homecoming king and queen. 130 00:12:01,121 --> 00:12:03,290 Aren't we a little old for homecoming? 131 00:12:03,423 --> 00:12:04,858 I would agree with that. 132 00:12:05,125 --> 00:12:07,703 Homecoming feels like a word that's, you know, 133 00:12:07,727 --> 00:12:10,673 partial to overweight Midwesterners 134 00:12:10,697 --> 00:12:15,301 who make floats out of toilet paper scraps and suffer from gout. 135 00:12:18,405 --> 00:12:20,941 It's not like I even have an outfit. 136 00:12:21,408 --> 00:12:23,286 You know what you would look great in? 137 00:12:23,310 --> 00:12:27,381 A simple black slip dress, something fresh, modern. 138 00:12:27,514 --> 00:12:29,593 No jewelry. 139 00:12:29,617 --> 00:12:31,318 Just décolletage. 140 00:12:33,220 --> 00:12:34,455 Décolletage? 141 00:12:34,554 --> 00:12:36,690 Maybe we should cancel the party too, you know. 142 00:12:36,790 --> 00:12:39,026 It's Robert's big welcome party, Bret. 143 00:12:39,159 --> 00:12:40,794 It's my big welcome party, Bret. 144 00:12:41,027 --> 00:12:43,473 It's gonna be like Capote's Black and White Ball. 145 00:12:43,497 --> 00:12:46,466 I'm so excited, thrilled. 146 00:12:47,034 --> 00:12:48,401 Et cetera. 147 00:12:54,040 --> 00:12:55,108 Bret's right. 148 00:12:55,308 --> 00:12:56,710 We should do something. 149 00:12:57,911 --> 00:12:59,422 Maybe we should post flyers. 150 00:12:59,446 --> 00:13:02,216 That's a great idea. Do something proactive. 151 00:13:02,716 --> 00:13:05,151 Why don't me and you do it together, Susan? 152 00:13:12,292 --> 00:13:14,294 Waitress, some more fries, please. 153 00:13:16,296 --> 00:13:21,202 We're asking anyone with information about Rhonda to please come forward. 154 00:13:21,669 --> 00:13:23,070 You won't be in trouble. 155 00:13:23,670 --> 00:13:27,707 The only way we're gonna find these kids is if we look. 156 00:13:28,809 --> 00:13:30,443 Or if they show up. 157 00:13:31,678 --> 00:13:33,013 Right. 158 00:13:35,248 --> 00:13:39,086 All of us have been haunted by the story of Etan Patz, 159 00:13:39,286 --> 00:13:43,490 six-year-old boy who disappeared outside his home in SoHo, New York. 160 00:13:43,924 --> 00:13:45,635 Was he kidnapped? 161 00:13:45,659 --> 00:13:46,927 Was he murdered? 162 00:13:47,227 --> 00:13:48,595 We don't know. 163 00:13:49,630 --> 00:13:51,307 What we do know 164 00:13:51,331 --> 00:13:54,210 is that because his picture appeared on every milk carton in America, 165 00:13:54,234 --> 00:13:59,172 his face is burned into the minds of the people who are going to bring him home. 166 00:14:01,274 --> 00:14:05,479 That is why we are handing out bottles of Really Rhonda water 167 00:14:06,146 --> 00:14:07,957 to increase awareness... 168 00:14:07,981 --> 00:14:09,650 And hydration. 169 00:14:10,351 --> 00:14:15,188 If you can't find a Perrier, reach for a Really Rhonda bottled water. 170 00:14:16,590 --> 00:14:19,736 Thanks again to Rhonda's dad and all the heroes at ICM 171 00:14:19,760 --> 00:14:25,332 for sponsoring our flyer, hydration, and the Rescue Rhonda Fund. 172 00:14:26,199 --> 00:14:27,400 Bravo, ICM. 173 00:14:35,308 --> 00:14:37,711 Now, AV club, hit it. 174 00:14:41,081 --> 00:14:42,983 Zero mention of Matt. 175 00:14:43,416 --> 00:14:45,886 - Unbelievable. - I'm sure they'll get to him. 176 00:14:46,253 --> 00:14:50,633 I think the line of awareness products for Matt Kellner could be historic. 177 00:14:50,657 --> 00:14:50,666 I think the line of awareness products for Matt Kellner could be historic. "Bring Matt Home" pencils. 178 00:14:50,690 --> 00:14:52,626 "Bring Matt Home" pencils. 179 00:14:52,759 --> 00:14:55,262 "Where Is Matt?" terry cloth come rags. 180 00:14:55,462 --> 00:14:57,640 It's not funny, Thom. 181 00:14:57,664 --> 00:14:59,275 I know, 182 00:14:59,299 --> 00:15:01,377 but my dad used to tell me to look on the sunny side, 183 00:15:01,401 --> 00:15:03,437 and that's what I'm trying to do for you. 184 00:15:10,043 --> 00:15:12,279 What are you wearing? 185 00:15:12,679 --> 00:15:13,847 Kouros. 186 00:15:14,014 --> 00:15:16,149 It smells so sexy. 187 00:15:17,117 --> 00:15:18,218 Thanks. 188 00:15:19,185 --> 00:15:20,263 It's for men. 189 00:15:20,287 --> 00:15:22,466 Yeah, you can really tell. 190 00:15:22,490 --> 00:15:25,359 - Hi. For Rhonda. Rescue Rhonda. - Help Rhonda. 191 00:15:25,859 --> 00:15:27,703 - Let's bring her home. - If she wanted to, 192 00:15:27,727 --> 00:15:30,397 she could be such a slut. 193 00:15:31,097 --> 00:15:32,633 There's nothing stopping her. 194 00:15:33,267 --> 00:15:35,302 I've always admired that. 195 00:15:36,369 --> 00:15:38,205 You're a really good friend. 196 00:15:40,040 --> 00:15:41,741 I am. 197 00:15:54,155 --> 00:15:56,323 It's sparkling, like Rhonda. 198 00:15:57,291 --> 00:15:59,826 You are really gunning for homecoming. 199 00:16:00,026 --> 00:16:01,528 That's not what this is. 200 00:16:02,662 --> 00:16:06,600 God, Thom, it's the '80s. Don't be so cynical. 201 00:16:49,276 --> 00:16:51,145 So tell me what your script is about. 202 00:16:51,578 --> 00:16:54,657 I dropped the treatment off with Steven. Did he not... 203 00:16:54,681 --> 00:16:56,959 Yeah, I received it. I read it. 204 00:16:56,983 --> 00:16:59,085 Steven loves it, by the way. 205 00:17:02,155 --> 00:17:04,224 I just don't know what it's about. 206 00:17:05,125 --> 00:17:07,594 I-I mean, why this story? Why now? 207 00:17:07,961 --> 00:17:12,098 Well, the character is me. 208 00:17:12,799 --> 00:17:14,935 A version of me anyway. 209 00:17:15,101 --> 00:17:17,537 His name is Bret Ellis. 210 00:17:19,039 --> 00:17:21,075 Well, that makes it interesting to you. 211 00:17:21,442 --> 00:17:23,476 That doesn't make it interesting to others. 212 00:17:24,778 --> 00:17:29,649 Listen, every great movie ever made is about loss. 213 00:17:30,217 --> 00:17:35,097 The loss of love, friendship, innocence, ideals, personal injury lawsuit. 214 00:17:35,121 --> 00:17:37,424 So what has Bret Ellis lost? 215 00:17:41,528 --> 00:17:43,563 Like... 216 00:17:45,432 --> 00:17:46,766 my virginity? 217 00:17:48,869 --> 00:17:50,204 Speak on that. 218 00:17:52,039 --> 00:17:53,340 Where are we going? 219 00:17:54,074 --> 00:17:57,178 Secret street. Connects Beverly Hills to the Valley. 220 00:17:57,310 --> 00:17:59,489 I thought that was just an urban legend. 221 00:17:59,513 --> 00:18:02,549 No, not an urban legend, a suburban fact. 222 00:18:03,083 --> 00:18:06,754 And only three people that I know of have the combination to the gates. 223 00:18:07,187 --> 00:18:09,589 Beatty. 224 00:18:10,624 --> 00:18:11,725 Nicholson. 225 00:18:13,026 --> 00:18:14,127 And me. 226 00:18:50,196 --> 00:18:56,369 8-1-7-0-6-6-6. 227 00:20:05,105 --> 00:20:07,474 Sometimes I come up here to be alone. 228 00:20:08,074 --> 00:20:09,342 You could too, you know. 229 00:20:10,777 --> 00:20:12,412 Think about your script. 230 00:20:14,147 --> 00:20:16,683 To get inspiration as an artist. 231 00:20:18,118 --> 00:20:21,021 This view is so inspirational. 232 00:20:24,157 --> 00:20:25,526 We could... 233 00:20:26,226 --> 00:20:29,229 We could come be alone together. 234 00:20:41,175 --> 00:20:44,611 I thought you said only three people have the code to this road. 235 00:20:45,478 --> 00:20:46,881 I said that I know of. 236 00:20:47,147 --> 00:20:51,284 Could just be Jack's gardener or picture hanger. 237 00:20:52,252 --> 00:20:53,620 Who knows? 238 00:21:05,432 --> 00:21:06,533 Terry? 239 00:21:07,434 --> 00:21:08,535 Yeah? 240 00:21:10,905 --> 00:21:12,272 Could you... 241 00:21:17,911 --> 00:21:19,279 take me home? 242 00:21:19,780 --> 00:21:20,915 Homework. 243 00:21:23,450 --> 00:21:24,551 Yeah. 244 00:21:58,418 --> 00:22:00,730 After Terry dropped me off, I knew automatically 245 00:22:00,754 --> 00:22:03,523 that I would be heading to Matt Kellner's house. 246 00:22:08,528 --> 00:22:10,673 When I turned onto Haskell Avenue, 247 00:22:10,697 --> 00:22:10,707 When I turned onto Haskell Avenue, I was suddenly struck with a fear I had never experienced before. 248 00:22:10,731 --> 00:22:13,967 I was suddenly struck with a fear I had never experienced before. 249 00:22:15,402 --> 00:22:19,005 It was an adrenaline that acted as a warning for me to save myself, 250 00:22:19,472 --> 00:22:23,510 but also mixed with an overwhelming compulsion to move forward... 251 00:22:25,078 --> 00:22:26,680 no matter how I felt, 252 00:22:27,681 --> 00:22:29,316 how afraid I was. 253 00:23:11,859 --> 00:23:14,461 This was the last place I had seen Matt. 254 00:23:16,129 --> 00:23:17,464 I missed him. 255 00:23:18,965 --> 00:23:20,434 I wanted him back. 256 00:23:21,001 --> 00:23:24,304 I was on a mission to find clues about his disappearance. 257 00:23:26,207 --> 00:23:27,774 I found them. 258 00:24:29,069 --> 00:24:31,471 As I sat there in the soft moonlight, 259 00:24:31,772 --> 00:24:37,110 I realized that, at 18, I was already staring into my past. 260 00:24:38,846 --> 00:24:41,658 I remember this being one of my first moments 261 00:24:41,682 --> 00:24:44,684 when I realized how powerful memory was. 262 00:24:49,923 --> 00:24:53,293 Or at least it was the first time it hurt the most. 263 00:25:33,667 --> 00:25:35,745 Hello. 264 00:25:35,769 --> 00:25:36,769 Hello. 265 00:25:43,677 --> 00:25:45,312 Where's Matt? 266 00:25:49,482 --> 00:25:51,184 What have you done with him? 267 00:25:52,185 --> 00:25:53,653 Where's Rhonda? 268 00:25:54,721 --> 00:25:57,591 Why are you doing this? 269 00:25:58,892 --> 00:26:00,360 Robert. 270 00:26:00,861 --> 00:26:02,062 Robert! 271 00:27:18,906 --> 00:27:20,407 Wow. 272 00:27:22,009 --> 00:27:23,710 Thank you. 273 00:27:25,078 --> 00:27:26,680 Thank you so much. 274 00:27:30,084 --> 00:27:32,052 Most people who win this award 275 00:27:32,519 --> 00:27:35,455 thank everybody that helped them get to this moment. 276 00:27:37,524 --> 00:27:43,029 Instead, I'd like to take this brief time I have here in the white-hot spotlight... 277 00:27:44,564 --> 00:27:47,434 to say what I really feel about how I got here. 278 00:27:49,102 --> 00:27:52,506 How I clawed my way up that mountain of success 279 00:27:53,273 --> 00:27:55,442 alone. 280 00:27:56,210 --> 00:27:58,512 To my first modeling agent 281 00:27:59,279 --> 00:28:01,081 who told me I had an ass like a pear 282 00:28:01,314 --> 00:28:04,918 and would probably be a Sears catalog model at best... 283 00:28:05,385 --> 00:28:08,088 fuck you, bitch. 284 00:28:08,288 --> 00:28:10,457 Look at me now. 285 00:28:13,193 --> 00:28:17,530 To my daughter who's watching tonight... 286 00:28:20,133 --> 00:28:23,036 you are the disappointment of my life. 287 00:28:25,438 --> 00:28:27,307 And to my husband... 288 00:28:29,042 --> 00:28:30,443 To my husband... 289 00:28:32,612 --> 00:28:38,184 who regularly reminds me that I am a worthless piece of shit... 290 00:28:44,124 --> 00:28:45,125 Lizzie. 291 00:28:45,792 --> 00:28:49,129 Are you still holding on to that actress thing? 292 00:28:49,629 --> 00:28:51,431 How deeply sad. 293 00:28:56,670 --> 00:28:59,039 You go ahead and make fun of me, Terry. 294 00:29:00,007 --> 00:29:02,509 I'm fucking used to it, you know. 295 00:29:08,448 --> 00:29:10,594 But I know I could have been more than this, 296 00:29:10,618 --> 00:29:14,088 more than just your stupid wife rattling around this mausoleum 297 00:29:14,287 --> 00:29:16,323 like a fucking ghost. 298 00:29:18,258 --> 00:29:20,437 Sue told me I have an "it" factor. 299 00:29:20,461 --> 00:29:22,372 Sue Mengers told you that at a dinner party 300 00:29:22,396 --> 00:29:24,431 where she was stoned out of her mind. 301 00:29:25,031 --> 00:29:27,802 Everybody feels sorry for you, Liz, so they fill your addled mind 302 00:29:28,034 --> 00:29:30,280 with positive reinforcement that you don't deserve. 303 00:29:30,304 --> 00:29:33,673 Haven't all the therapists I paid for helped you understand that? 304 00:29:35,842 --> 00:29:37,411 If you would have let me, 305 00:29:38,144 --> 00:29:42,315 I could have pursued my dream and been somebody, 306 00:29:43,216 --> 00:29:45,762 instead of your fucking plus-one. 307 00:29:45,786 --> 00:29:47,597 Sure, absolutely. 308 00:29:47,621 --> 00:29:50,757 Keep practicing your speech, babe, with one of my three Oscars. 309 00:29:51,258 --> 00:29:53,460 But don't forget to thank your coke dealer. 310 00:30:06,139 --> 00:30:09,309 I already knew Robert Mallory was a liar. 311 00:30:10,878 --> 00:30:12,856 He was the only one at lunch who didn't show 312 00:30:12,880 --> 00:30:15,615 a flicker of concern about the missing kids. 313 00:30:16,149 --> 00:30:18,417 Almost like he knew they were already gone. 314 00:30:53,053 --> 00:30:56,432 I committed myself to the pursuit of a single goal: 315 00:30:56,456 --> 00:30:59,225 track Robert and prove he was The Trawler. 316 00:31:36,830 --> 00:31:38,307 Cielo Drive. 317 00:31:38,331 --> 00:31:41,068 This is where, almost exactly 12 years ago, 318 00:31:41,234 --> 00:31:43,680 three members of the Manson Family stabbed and killed. 319 00:31:43,704 --> 00:31:48,008 Jay Sebring, Abigail Folger, Wojciech Frykowski, 320 00:31:48,208 --> 00:31:51,378 Steven Parent, and nine-months-pregnant Sharon Tate. 321 00:31:54,514 --> 00:31:59,019 I was obsessed with Joan Didion's account of the Manson murders. 322 00:31:59,353 --> 00:32:01,688 I read it over and over again. 323 00:32:01,788 --> 00:32:06,059 I retyped the sentences on my typewriter, trying to understand their architecture. 324 00:32:07,260 --> 00:32:09,863 Like all aspiring writers of my generation, 325 00:32:10,364 --> 00:32:12,532 I wanted to write like Didion. 326 00:32:14,234 --> 00:32:15,569 With restraint, 327 00:32:16,170 --> 00:32:17,571 economy, 328 00:32:18,672 --> 00:32:20,507 and total control. 329 00:32:22,108 --> 00:32:23,443 If I could write like that... 330 00:32:25,779 --> 00:32:27,414 I could be like that. 331 00:32:28,548 --> 00:32:30,150 Or so I thought. 332 00:32:54,474 --> 00:32:57,010 I didn't know what he was doing there. 333 00:32:58,578 --> 00:33:00,781 I only knew what I was doing there: 334 00:33:01,882 --> 00:33:04,718 "Telling myself a story in order to live." 335 00:33:09,055 --> 00:33:12,626 Part of me just wanted to knock on the door or force my way in. 336 00:33:13,727 --> 00:33:15,763 What if Matt was in there right now? 337 00:33:16,196 --> 00:33:17,697 Or Really Rhonda? 338 00:33:20,100 --> 00:33:23,337 Who knew what sort of hideous agony he was inflicting? 339 00:33:24,972 --> 00:33:28,751 Were they lying there bloody and beaten, mangled and mutilated, 340 00:33:28,775 --> 00:33:33,380 screaming out for someone, anyone, to come to the rescue? 341 00:33:46,426 --> 00:33:49,696 Being afraid is so lame, I kept telling myself. 342 00:33:53,700 --> 00:33:57,704 Being afraid is so lame and you're not a pussy. 343 00:34:17,123 --> 00:34:21,671 Eventually I would find out that this remote mysterious house 344 00:34:21,695 --> 00:34:24,531 was a rental property of Robert Mallory's aunt. 345 00:34:26,499 --> 00:34:28,902 Later, when the police interviewed me, 346 00:34:29,536 --> 00:34:32,606 I told them the truth about what I suspected was in the bag. 347 00:34:34,140 --> 00:34:35,709 A human head. 348 00:36:18,445 --> 00:36:19,713 Hello. 349 00:36:34,160 --> 00:36:35,295 Hello? 350 00:37:11,365 --> 00:37:13,467 Being afraid is so lame. 351 00:37:24,778 --> 00:37:26,478 Don't be lame. 352 00:37:38,725 --> 00:37:40,094 Hello? 353 00:39:22,863 --> 00:39:24,907 Please, please, please, just please let me go home. 354 00:39:24,931 --> 00:39:27,677 Please let me go home. Motherfucker, cock, shit, cunt licker. 355 00:39:27,701 --> 00:39:29,913 Fuck. I'm sorry. No, I'm sorry. 356 00:39:29,937 --> 00:39:32,048 Fuck. 357 00:39:32,072 --> 00:39:34,341 Please, please, please. 358 00:39:35,475 --> 00:39:36,653 No, no, no! 359 00:39:36,677 --> 00:39:39,146 Get the fuck off of me!